BANANA SPLIT

THIS IS BANANAAAAAAAAAAAA
Bananas love Melees.
But Bananas are better than Melees.
LOL, JK.

I met Mely in a friend's house two years ago, a day that her brother took her with him to hangout with our friends. She wore a Goofy hat that day. She rocks. I don't remember what else happened that day, LOL, but I remember I liked her and I had this weird feeling we would be great friends. Yeah, that's when you say AWWWWW. After so much time we've been through really funny and EPIC things together. We have had so much fun in parties, we have tanned together (usually sun burn for me, yay! -_-), we have had epic sleepovers at my place and her place, we made our own "suicidal club" with Natz, we became the BBMFF (best Banana-Melee friends forever... yes, we are better than you), and I even got her to meet a guy I knew she would like (sorry about that. hahaha). In conclusion, I LOVE MELEEEEEEE, SHE'S THE BEST FRIEND EVERRRRRR, kbai. :D

Sad But True.

You know that feeling you get... when you realize that everything is a lie? Yes, that feeling. Do you understand what it is to be filled with it? To be able to say that you are going through hell? To say your life is basically a fictional story made up to make you believe it, just so another person can suck out the goodness for their ego?

Oh my gosh.

I'm okay... It just hurts when I breathe.

Im tired of all of this.

ORLY?

Oh. A lot of shit has gone this past couple of weeks, so... Yeah, kinda hard to break it down to a nutshell. But I'll try. I just got out of school, did well, exams were a bitch but they're finally over. Friends are kinda cool right now, hanging out with them a lot and stuff... Mom, dad & brother are really focusing on his departure to the city he will move to, to go to college. I'm going to miss him like hell, but it is something we have to go through.

His graduation ceremony and ball was the 11th of June, 2011. It was so much fun, it really was. One of the best days of my life. My sister came all the way from her city down to here just for his graduation. Her boyfriend came along. So we partied and it was awesome and I didnt cry, I restrained myself from it:D

So yeah, just hit vacations, going out every day... I wish this would never end.

P.S: I recently found out something about someone that used to be a very important part of my life... and it wasnt easy... but im coping through.

Not Free, Not Yet.

Apparently, I failed my social studies final, which means that I have to do another exam so I can recover. This sucks. Why? Because it sadly means that I need to keep studying until the 3rd of June. I really, really dislike this subject, specially because my teacher effin hates me. How do I know this? Because there was this one time, it was a tuesday, that I came home from school early because I had a terrible headache, I basically didn't go to her class, she didn't even notice. Anyway, the class was loud, as usual, and out of fucking nowhere, she starts shouting 'at me' "MELISSA, PLEASE SHUT UP!!" (which is very rude, I cant believe she said that) and my friend was like "Um, Miss, she isn't here..." Ok. I'm not going to freak out right now because it happend like a month ago, and I cannot deal with it right nao, but that IS FUCKING CRAZY, MAN. How could a teacher blame someone WHO IS NOT EVEN IN THE CLASSROOM?!?!?

UGH.

Ok. Enough about that.

A lot of things have been happening lately, new experiences, new ways of living, and letting go of old things and embracing new ones.

I cant find my phone. Shit.

TASTE ZE FREEDOM!

Yes. Finally. Exams are over! It was incredibly brutal, I've never studied so much in my entire life, well, I've never actually studied in my entire life, ha ha. So, yesterday was my final "important" exam which was social studies and I think I might ace it, the odds are on my side. That made my parents extremely happy, so we went out for ice cream and I got a really nice ring with my favorite stone:)

On a rather sad note, yesterday evening wasn't so much fun. After I got home from going out with ze parents, I was planning on going out to celebrate our youth with some friends, you know, have some champagne, laugh a little... But no, everything went to shit as soon as 1 friend cancelled, then everything went downhill from there. Finally, like at 9:30 I went to the mall to see an art expo a friend of mine was organizing. We went there, saw the pictures, got some food and went straight to my best friend's house, Ana. We like to call it Casana. HEHE.

When we got there it was really quiet, apparently there was no one home, but then people started arriving and it was really crowded. I didn't like it, so I went home at like 12:30. It was more of a tolerance problem, than anything else... yes. I cant tolerate people like that. It effin' annoying! My mom thinks I should change that, I should be more tolerant when it comes to people. Meh.

So yeah, now it will all be about the party and the blogging. This shall be fun:D

Procrastinating.

Oh gosh, here we go again. Yes, I found myself sitting in my room, with my book open, ready to study finals and I cant concentrate. I hate it when this happens, specially when Im in finals.
Dammit. What shall I do?

Bak Tuh Laif.

So I’m back from the school trip, and it was truly amazing, we had a blast!!1! We cried, we laughed, we got sun-burned and it was all worth it. We got to get to know our classmates in a more intense way, like, seeing all of them crying and hearing about their problems, it was really impressive how people can go through so many things at home and still be incredibly happy when they go to school. We saw different sides of people there, and people got to see different sides of us too. It was liberating too, the way we could say anything and still in some way, trust people with what we said. I’m glad I went, because now I know more than I knew before, about life, friends and family. Its all so much better now.


I forgot to post this on Wednesday. Sorry.

New Eyes.

So I’m back from the school trip, and it was truly amazing, we had a blast!!1! We cried, we laughed, we got sun-burned and it was all worth it. We got to get to know our classmates in a more intense way, like, seeing all of them crying and hearing about their problems, it was really impressive how people can go through so many things at home and still be incredibly happy when they go to school. We saw different sides of people there, and people got to see different sides of us too. It was liberating too, the way we could say anything and still in some way, trust people with what we said. I’m glad I went, because now I know more than I knew before, about life, friends and family. Its all so much better now. 

This Is Just The Beginning.

My chemestry final was today, at 10:30 AM at school. Unfortunately, I did not know of this, so I woke up at 6, to get to school at 7. Sucks, I know. When I got to school there was no one there, only a couple of sixth graders laying on the floor sleeping. I didnt waste any time so I started studying, until it was time for my exam. I was super scared but then I talked to J.J. and he totally calmed me down:)
The examn on itself was easy, 55 multiple-choice questions and about 13 regular ones. It was kind of difficult, I mean, there were some questions that made me go "WTF?!?" but I tried no to panick and improvised.

 The exam was supposed to last 2 whole hours, but I finished it in the first, so I took a nap. Hehe. After that, my mom picked me up and went shopping for some shirts I need for tomorrow. By the way, tomorrow our grade has this, um... "trip" were we get together and do activites just to reunite. Fun.

My bags are ready and my clothes are off, Im ready to go to sleep after this post.
G'night.

Just Another Sunday. Oh, Right. It's Mothers Day.

Today I woke up with a strange feeling, that kind of feeling that makes you wanna cry but tears dont fall from your eyes? Yes, that one. I got choked up on thoughts and had to stand up and go to the bathroom, wash my face just to calm down. I dont know where it came from, it had certainly nothing to do with what I dreamt about it. Im still trying to figure it out and its already been 1 hour since I woke up. Took a shower, had family breakfast, and sat down to think.

Man... I still cant figure it out.

I'm going to stop worrying. Maybe it'll pass.

Mom was happy today. She woke up to a brand new fridge in her kitchen, she's been wating it for a couple of moths now, so my dad and I went to the store and got it for her as a mother's day present. She almost fainted with happiness:)

Anyways, my chemestry final is tomorrow, so I got to get back to studying. This sucks...

Fuck, I Never Actually Learned this Shit!

Finals just started and Im a little bit worried about how things are going to be with the whole International bla, bla, bla. Im actually more scared than preocupied. Yes. Scared. Interesting, huh? Its just that the whole school year has been so easy (partying, partying, YEAH!) and now after all those months of doing absolutely nothing in every single class, they tell us to learn all this shit out of nowhere that we know nothing about for 3, two-hour, exams for each subject. MOTHER BITCH.

On a happy note, now that I've created tumblr and u2b for List of Fictional Astronauts I've got to put up things in so many pages its crazy! Im so excited about it, nonetheless. Its going to entertain me and give me more things to do in vacations I guess. Ballet, gym, french, summer classes, tutoring in the morning and afternoon, and then teh interwebz until dawn. AWESOME!!!!1!!1!!

List of Fictional Astronauts.

YES. This will be the name of my new youtube account, tumblr, dailybooth and a couple of other nonschense. Its me and my best friend's page just for fun:D

We're planning on posting videos, pictures and stuff and IT WILL BE AMAZING.

One more time.

After a long, amazing week of vacation tomorrow I have to go back to school, which sucks in a level that cannot be described in words. So, I decided to pay tribute to vacations.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ocL-o8GY02k

Boyce Avenue.

These guys are awesome, you should really check them out.

Sorry this post made no sense, im bored and dont know what else to do. TEEHEE.

StuffStuffStuffStuff.

Its been a HELL of a month march/april. Its just been sucky, like really just plain bad. I dont get it. I've always liked march, for some weird reason, now i hate it. Its probably because im a young adult now, and have bigger responsabilities that keeping my gold fish alive.

School is REALLY fucking annoying right now, even now in my spring break i have a bunch of stuff due next week and i dont feel like doing any of it... But i have to. Y´know. Deal with the laziness. On another note, people keep surprising me. All the time. Its super weird, specially now since i stopped having high expectations about 'em. Maybe thats the reason why. idk.

I went to Bogota last week, it was super fun:) The idea was to go renew my visa, but we ended up just shopping and stuff. We did renew it, but it wasnt the prime thing in our heads haha. I visited my sister's boyfriend's house and had dinner with his family and that was fun... Besides shopping and going out nothing else happened... So yeah.

Im going to bed.

Grounded. Again.

Life's been really surprising lately, from every aspect of my life there seems to be a little surprise to blow up in my face. Its not nice. Most of these surprises end up being really sucky. So, now I'll be trying to put them behind me, like I did with a bunch of things this month. Interesting month this is, march. I kinda hate you. Yes. Hatred.

School is really being a bitch right now, finals are close as fuck so our teachers are yet again going crazy on getting grades. My last bimester's grades were really good, except for socials, physics(as usual) and spanish, I failed all three of 'em. My mom gave me a hard time about it, but its totally cool because it really is my fault I failed those subjects. It is pure laziness, my one true weakness.

Mom and dad are being adorable, their 25th anniversary is coming soon and they're planning on renewing their wedding vows, which makes me really happy. Silver anniversary. That is a big number. My sister turning 24 on april 23rd and my brother turning 19 on october 21st. I feel so little. I've been through a lot, the way I see it, Its more than my brother and sister even went through when they were my age. That makes me think that there must be something really big waiting for me in the future, or at least I hope there is.

I recently found out people are SO FUCKING ANNOYING. Well, not all the time, I just really wanted to say that. However, people can be annoying sometimes. People are just different, some will understand and some wont. You just have to deal with the fact that there will always be people in your life that might not fancy you, be mad at you or simply hate you. I, personally, have gotten over that. Yes, at first it will hurt or make you mad and what not, but then eventually you forget about it, and move on. That is my plan now, my purpose, move on and forget about the past, it made me who I am right now, and for that I am grateful. Regret for wasted time is more wasted time. I will now live with no regrets. I will try to.

Fun.

It's been a dificult week. School is getting on my nerves, all of my teachers are really pissin' me off. My friends are kinda cool now. My family is being really supportive, and that makes me happy. I've decided that I should make more decisions for myself, I need to be more independent, I want to be more independent. My new english teacher told me so. Miss D. I love her. She is a SexEd teacher as well. Makes me love her even more. Classmates are less annoying now, for some reason. Im not even going to question it. Im lovin' it.

Carnivals are going down. So yeah, every one's happy the carnivals are here but not that excited after all this years. There's been times were I was too excited for carnivals, yes, it was a happy glorious time for us here in my little piece of heaven. I dont know what happened. In '09, I remember I was super excited to go out in the streets and party. Throw cold water at people, food, or little bags full of pee. But this year, its different. This carnivals seem so dull and boring. They dont even attract my atention anymore, and I am easily amused. Even the carnivals at my school are looking kind of colorless. I dont mind. Im much better feeling this way:)

Dilema

I hate being confused. I hate it soooo f*ucking much. It makes me feel powerless. Unable to work out a solution for a problem... Its not my fault. I'm a teenager, Its kinda my job to have stupid, yet very important, problems. My friends dont get it, and I dont blame them, they cannot enter my head and get seats at the back of my eyes to see what goes on.

Ugh.

Everything went to shit. All of it. It makes me feel really bad, because it is partially my fault. I get my hopes up and then, when something bad happens, I get drepressed. Its lame, but it happens to me all the time.

:(

Things I Love.

• That feeling I get after I laugh so hard I cant breathe
• Snuggling
• Sitting on the beach after dark
• Blasting music with the windows down on warm days
• Singing along badly
• Making random animal noises
• Talking to pets like they understand
• Endorphins
• Hugging people taller than me
• Staying up to late to talk to my friends
• When my bed is the most comfortable place in the world and I dont have to leave
• Inside jokes that make no sense
• Making fun of horrible movies
• Beautiful iTunes shuffle mixes
• Nicknames
• Movie soundtracks
• Making lists 
• You;)

Oh, Fuck.

I totally forgot I had a blog. That sucks. Nothing interesting happened this past two weeks, but Im still sorry.
Im kinda bummed out about something, about a lot of things actually. Time is going by so fast its not even funny. That really scares me, it always has. Its 2011, this means I turn 17 this year, that means im going to be a junior, and that means that next year im going to turn 18, and a senior. Oh shit. Im too old for this. I only turned 16 a couple of months ago, yet, i still cant process it. I stuck in 13. I kinda always have been 13, ever since i turned 13. My interests remain the same, except now I really, really like boys, stupid as it sounds, its true. Im more mature on other aspects, when it comes to taking or giving advice, when it comes to school (not all the time), relationships, among other things.

Speaking of being more mature, I kinda have to learn how to let go. I still dont know how to do it, i mean, i think i can, but it takes me a hell of a long time and thats not the point of letting go. And i do need to let go, of a lot of things. Friends, for example, friends that are no good to me. Mostly people who keep on letting me down, 'cause I just cant stand it anymore. I have to changed that, and fullfil my new year's reasolutions, thats going to be fun, because i dont have any!!!  I might write some down later, i dont know yet.

Dramatically changing the subject, school is sucking ass right now. My friends are being a pain in the ass and there is not one person that doesnt get on my nerves. Except for Frias. I love her so much, eventhough i pick on her way too much, i couldnt live a day without her.

In Love

So, I recently fell in love with this song. I can't get it out of my head... Here it is

Im coming up only to hold you under
Im coming up only to show you wrong
And to know you is hard and we wonder
To know you all wrong, we were

Really too late to call, so we wait for
Morning to wake you; it's all we got
To know me as hardly golden
Is to know me all wrong, they were

At every occasion I'll be ready for a funeral
At every occasion once more is called a funeral
Every occasion I'm ready for the funeral
At every occasion one brilliant day funeral

I'm coming up only to show you down for
I'm coming up only to show you wrong
To the outside, the dead leaves, they all blow (alive is very poetic)
For'e (before) they died had trees to hang their hope

At every occasion I'll be ready for the funeral
At every occasion once more is called the funeral
At every occasion I'm ready for the funeral
At every occasion one brilliant day funeral


The Funeral - Band of Horses.

No, I'm Not Dead.

Yes, Im finally back to writing on this little blog only a handful of people actually follow. Oh, btw, happy new years!
Nothing interesting has happened. Besides me failing physics again, and my family and i spending the holidays with my sister. That was kind of fun. It was definetly exciting, 'cause we've always spent holidays either here, or in my mom's home town. So it was a new experience *forced smile*
I got my grades on the 17th and flew on the 22nd. My brother's girlfriend's birthday, she was crushed, he kinda wasnt. Anyway, we got there around 7:30-8pm and went straight to taco bell. GOD, THE FOOD WAS DELICIOUS. I really enjoyed it. So much I threw it all up. Loljk.

Unfortunately, my dad didnt fly with us that day, he had to stay with a pacient until the 30th. That made me sad. Moving on. The next day we went shopping. Like the rest of that week.

On Christmas eve, we made or last xmas shopping on the regular mall. My mom left with my brother to do their own shopping, and i left with my sister. I bought my brother two notebooks for him to draw on (he really likes drawing) A bracelet for my mom, that matched the earring my sister got her, and i bought (back home) a Robbie Williams CD for my sister.

I got the perfume I wanted, two pairs of earrings from my mom and sister, and a little doll my brother got me. The rest of the night was fun. We went to sleep really early 'cause we opened our gifts around 10pm (we really couldnt wait).

On the 30th, at night, we drove down to a little town 3 hours away from my sister's apartment. To spend new year's eve with the rest of the family. We went to sleep as soon as we got there. What? We like to sleep. Its our favorite thing to do. The next day, we woke up really early, like around 11am. The little girl in the house showed me the backyard, ofcourse I went with my sister and checked it out. There were little puppies, ducks, chickens, peacocks, and two big dogs. The biggest dog was an akita. Big ass dog. So we got close to it, and it was nice to us, so we pet him for a while. Then we went to a museum and got back at around 4:30. We went to the back yard again, 'cause I saw a sheep and I was going to show it to my sister. We saw and as we were coming down the hill the akita attacked my sister. 7 bites, 2 in the face. It was awful.

Thank god my uncle had a friend who is a plastic surgeon and he was already on his way to the cabain. Everything happend really quick and its all blurry and I dont want to get into it, so yeah. That was how I spent  my holidays. Fun right?