It's been a dificult week. School is getting on my nerves, all of my teachers are really pissin' me off. My friends are kinda cool now. My family is being really supportive, and that makes me happy. I've decided that I should make more decisions for myself, I need to be more independent, I want to be more independent. My new english teacher told me so. Miss D. I love her. She is a SexEd teacher as well. Makes me love her even more. Classmates are less annoying now, for some reason. Im not even going to question it. Im lovin' it.
Carnivals are going down. So yeah, every one's happy the carnivals are here but not that excited after all this years. There's been times were I was too excited for carnivals, yes, it was a happy glorious time for us here in my little piece of heaven. I dont know what happened. In '09, I remember I was super excited to go out in the streets and party. Throw cold water at people, food, or little bags full of pee. But this year, its different. This carnivals seem so dull and boring. They dont even attract my atention anymore, and I am easily amused. Even the carnivals at my school are looking kind of colorless. I dont mind. Im much better feeling this way:)
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Friday, February 25, 2011
Dilema
I hate being confused. I hate it soooo f*ucking much. It makes me feel powerless. Unable to work out a solution for a problem... Its not my fault. I'm a teenager, Its kinda my job to have stupid, yet very important, problems. My friends dont get it, and I dont blame them, they cannot enter my head and get seats at the back of my eyes to see what goes on.
Ugh.
Everything went to shit. All of it. It makes me feel really bad, because it is partially my fault. I get my hopes up and then, when something bad happens, I get drepressed. Its lame, but it happens to me all the time.
:(
Everything went to shit. All of it. It makes me feel really bad, because it is partially my fault. I get my hopes up and then, when something bad happens, I get drepressed. Its lame, but it happens to me all the time.
:(
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Things I Love.
- That feeling I get after I laugh so hard I cant breathe
- Snuggling
- Sitting on the beach after dark
- Blasting music with the windows down on warm days
- Singing along badly
- Making random animal noises
- Talking to pets like they understand
- Endorphins
- Hugging people taller than me
- Staying up to late to talk to my friends
- When my bed is the most comfortable place in the world and I dont have to leave
- Inside jokes that make no sense
- Making fun of horrible movies
- Beautiful iTunes shuffle mixes
- Nicknames
- Movie soundtracks
- Making lists
- You;)
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Oh, Fuck.
I totally forgot I had a blog. That sucks. Nothing interesting happened this past two weeks, but Im still sorry.
Im kinda bummed out about something, about a lot of things actually. Time is going by so fast its not even funny. That really scares me, it always has. Its 2011, this means I turn 17 this year, that means im going to be a junior, and that means that next year im going to turn 18, and a senior. Oh shit. Im too old for this. I only turned 16 a couple of months ago, yet, i still cant process it. I stuck in 13. I kinda always have been 13, ever since i turned 13. My interests remain the same, except now I really, really like boys, stupid as it sounds, its true. Im more mature on other aspects, when it comes to taking or giving advice, when it comes to school (not all the time), relationships, among other things.
Speaking of being more mature, I kinda have to learn how to let go. I still dont know how to do it, i mean, i think i can, but it takes me a hell of a long time and thats not the point of letting go. And i do need to let go, of a lot of things. Friends, for example, friends that are no good to me. Mostly people who keep on letting me down, 'cause I just cant stand it anymore. I have to changed that, and fullfil my new year's reasolutions, thats going to be fun, because i dont have any!!! I might write some down later, i dont know yet.
Dramatically changing the subject, school is sucking ass right now. My friends are being a pain in the ass and there is not one person that doesnt get on my nerves. Except for Frias. I love her so much, eventhough i pick on her way too much, i couldnt live a day without her.
Im kinda bummed out about something, about a lot of things actually. Time is going by so fast its not even funny. That really scares me, it always has. Its 2011, this means I turn 17 this year, that means im going to be a junior, and that means that next year im going to turn 18, and a senior. Oh shit. Im too old for this. I only turned 16 a couple of months ago, yet, i still cant process it. I stuck in 13. I kinda always have been 13, ever since i turned 13. My interests remain the same, except now I really, really like boys, stupid as it sounds, its true. Im more mature on other aspects, when it comes to taking or giving advice, when it comes to school (not all the time), relationships, among other things.
Speaking of being more mature, I kinda have to learn how to let go. I still dont know how to do it, i mean, i think i can, but it takes me a hell of a long time and thats not the point of letting go. And i do need to let go, of a lot of things. Friends, for example, friends that are no good to me. Mostly people who keep on letting me down, 'cause I just cant stand it anymore. I have to changed that, and fullfil my new year's reasolutions, thats going to be fun, because i dont have any!!! I might write some down later, i dont know yet.
Dramatically changing the subject, school is sucking ass right now. My friends are being a pain in the ass and there is not one person that doesnt get on my nerves. Except for Frias. I love her so much, eventhough i pick on her way too much, i couldnt live a day without her.
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